Semi-mindless ramblings

Well, it's December 2013 and it has been a while since I've posted.  I guess that's pretty obvious.

I've asked myself why, and never really had a good answer.  Sure I took on a new position at work, and Josh needed to be driven all over for baseball... but really I think the truth is that despite the jovial spin I put on my writing, it wasn't enjoyable.

Zach had come to a point where I realized that his time was not long on this world.  Despite our best efforts, I knew that there wasn't much more we could do. Not writing about it allowed me to avoid thinking about it I guess.

Zach passed away on November 4th in his bed surrounded by his family.  I'd rather not revisit the event save to say that it was peaceful.

So I find myself in a strange place.  How is a parent supposed to handle the passing of one of their children?  No matter how much you think about it, you are never really prepared.  There isn't really a part of the brain designed to deal with this topic.

So, like we have done since Zach's diagnosis - we just take things day by day.  People still ask how we are doing and for the most part I just say we are doing okay.  Most of the time it's even the truth.

It obvious that many people really don't know what to day.  We understand.  I wouldn't know what to say either.  Although, no matter how many people say it, you are never going to convince us that he is in a "better place".

Those who loved him most are still here, so how could he possibly be in a better place?

Anyway, I've depressed myself enough for one evening.  Perhaps I will return when the mood hits me.

Until then remember, we are never promised tomorrow.