Well, it's December 2013 and it has been a while since I've posted. I guess that's pretty obvious.
I've asked myself why, and never really had a good answer. Sure I took on a new position at work, and Josh needed to be driven all over for baseball... but really I think the truth is that despite the jovial spin I put on my writing, it wasn't enjoyable.
Zach had come to a point where I realized that his time was not long on this world. Despite our best efforts, I knew that there wasn't much more we could do. Not writing about it allowed me to avoid thinking about it I guess.
Zach passed away on November 4th in his bed surrounded by his family. I'd rather not revisit the event save to say that it was peaceful.
So I find myself in a strange place. How is a parent supposed to handle the passing of one of their children? No matter how much you think about it, you are never really prepared. There isn't really a part of the brain designed to deal with this topic.
So, like we have done since Zach's diagnosis - we just take things day by day. People still ask how we are doing and for the most part I just say we are doing okay. Most of the time it's even the truth.
It obvious that many people really don't know what to day. We understand. I wouldn't know what to say either. Although, no matter how many people say it, you are never going to convince us that he is in a "better place".
Those who loved him most are still here, so how could he possibly be in a better place?
Anyway, I've depressed myself enough for one evening. Perhaps I will return when the mood hits me.
Until then remember, we are never promised tomorrow.
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I saw your family's story on mystery diagnosis. The way you all rallied together to relentlessly research and find an answer was amazing. I could tell you gave him the best life anyone ever could have. He is still with you, and always will be. May God give you strength and bring you peace.
I am so sorry for your loss. Zach is in a better place and his story touched so many lives. May God bless your family.
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